poems

words flow from my pen,
writing all i could not say.
i pause and look at,
at the stars that guide,
me through my life.
and i stop and wonder...
is it really worth it?
is it worth the pain and feeling of loss?
then i look down at the paper,
and i see my heart laid bare,
almost bleeding though the paper,
the black..or is it red?
ink is stark against the paper,
and i relaize that i will,
always play the fool,
in this game of life,
someone must,
but will i ever get a turn,
a turn at true love....
i wonder and then i relaize that there is no such thing,
at least.....not for me....


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EnD oF tHe YeAr!

well for me my sophomore*wise fool in greek* year ends on june 16th and i can't believe it. the year just went by so fast and i feel as though i missed so much. i went from a girl who didn't know how the heck she was going to get through the year to a young woman who is blessed by wonderful friends, guys and girls, a wonderful drama family and a relatively good sense of humour and hopes for the future and for love. i just feel this incredible of lonliness, i know i'm loved by my friends but i don't know how often i'll see them over the summer. loss doesn't always mean death. i know i've lost some of my friends just because we have lost touch...... what really hurts is that since most of my friends are juniors and they'll be graduating next year. my drama years have been so amazing because i have gotten to know so many amazing talented people. sure i've crushed on a couple but i love them all and i am going to be a complete mess at graduation but i now realize how much i cherish them and their friendship..yea i use this blog as a vent for my feelings if you want to ask anything, please do and i'll be glad to answer.
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